Maybe i should get some motivation BEFORE 2am

Sooo. as you may or may not be able to see, i'm blogging at 3am. Why do i have no motivation what so ever until the late (or early) hours of the night (morning? i have NO CLUE. and plus, i get lazy like halfway through since its so late, and then my typos get even worse. and i've realized (well actually, i already knew it, i just haven't actually thought about it.) that it might annoy people that i have like 100 typos per post ( i'm WAY too lazy to use spell check) and that i practically never capitalize anything. and you know what?! (what?) that's just TOO BAD.

but a REALLY HUGE thing i want to mention is that i also have another follower!!! :D and yeah, the blogging celebs might be like "psh! the blogging peasant is excited about having two followers?" but YOU KNOW WHAT?! i don't care! it's a HUGE step in the right direction, and i'm STOKED! so my follower is the awesome Sara over at Waking up in a sleepy town ! And i don't believe i've formally introduced myself; i'm rachel. i'm weird. i'm 14, like alley. i change subjects a lot and i don't always make sense. now you know a little bit about me. lol maybe i should take peoples ideas and start posting random facts. i don't know. i'll submit it to my producers (aka my brain) but the romance monster will probably eat it alive without batting an eyelash. i doubt i will anyways. oh well. lol

so now on to the main event! or rather what i didn't finish LAST time i was posting.....
MENTAL...everyone's favorite....oh forget it. for those of you that are new, its basically me rambling about what's going on in my head. lol
IN THIS SEGMENT OF MENTAL I WILL BE TALKING ABOUT THE DAYDREAM THING THAT I HAD FOR NO REAL REASON WHILE I WAS TALKING TO ALLEY. IT WAS TRIGGERED BY NONE OTHER THAN THE ROMANCE MONSTER.

so to introduce the setting, picture a hill. a fairly large grassy hill, spotted with wildflowers. its not OVERFLOWING with them. behind the hill is the edge of a large forest, which i and sunshine (of course he's involved in this) hiked through all day (as a couple)

me and mark were wandering through the forest, and we happened upon this hill. so we went and we sat down on top of the hill, dropping our stuff a few feet behind us so we could rest. we were sitting with our feet out in front of us, and our arms spread out behind us (in a V so we wouldn't fall over)

his hand was on top of mine, and he had his fingers intertwined in mine, so it was sorta like holding hands.

so we just kinda sat there, talking about the day and laughing at inside jokes. at some point in the convo, mark picked one of the floweres that was around us and he was like "here. this is for you" and set it in my lap.

so when there was a lapse in our convo (which was after a while) he kissed me on the cheek and wrapped his arms around me. then i layed my head on his shoulder. it was nice.

so i think that concludes this segment of MENTAL. but, you know, its 4:30am, and i am FAR from the ability to think well right now. lol so after i imagined all of this, i told alley, and then both her and i were freaking out, and then my internet stopped working and i had to scramble throughout my house for a half an hour and get it to work. so that was great. but anyways, if there was anything else, i'm not gonna remember it now. so.....

oh i wonder what would happen if mark found out about this blog? that would certanly give me something for Secret Life of Tova Darling 's Totally Awkward Tuesdays. i'm hoping that doesn't happen though....
-helcar <3 (ok. i think this post calls for a heart because normally the face goes with the content.)

P.S.: i feel like its necessary to inform you of the fact that although it says that this post was published at 2:50 something? it was ACTUALLY like 4:48 ish. don't ask me why i feel like i need to tell you. i just do. and that's why i need to get some motivation before 2am.