Wednesday, April 29, 2009

aaachooO!

everyone is sick :( swine flu is making everyone sick.. EVEN IF THEY DONT HAVE SWINE FLU! lol maybe the world WILL end in 2012! everyone will be disease ridden and die! happy thought right? enjoy your last years! make a mini bucket-list! do you want to meet a rockstar? DO IT! do you want to talk to the cute guy in your class? DO IT! do you want to get a piece of writing published, even if its just in the newspaper? DO IT! YOU CAN DO IT! QUICK! IN THE TIME YOU HAVE LEFT! lol do i sound like some sort of messed up motivationial (not even going to spell check that one) speaker? but ANYWAYS! i was sick, olympia was sick, bc was sick, spaz was sick, and alley (at the moment..which is 10:59pm on april 29, 2009...lol i was talking to her mom on facebook....)
ALSO: i have Thunder by Boys Like Girls stuck in my head. except its just the chorus thats stuck in my head....

Today is a winding road
Thats taking me to places that I didn't want to go, whoa
Today in the blink of an eye
I'm holding on to something and I do not know why I tried
I tried to read between the lines
I tried to look in your eyes
I want a simple explanation; what I'm feeling inside
I gotta find a way out
Maybe there's a way out

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder

Today is a winding road
Tell me where to start and tell me something I don't know, whoa
Today I'm on my own
I cant move a muscle and I cant pick up the phone, I don't know
And now I'm itching for the tall grass
And longing for the breeze
I need to step outside, just to see if I can breathe
I gotta find a way out
Maybe there's a way out

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain,

Yeah I'm walking on a tightrope
I'm wrapped up in vines
I think Ill make it out but you just gotta give me time
Strike me down with lightning
Let me feel you in my veins
I wanna let you know how much I feel your pain

Today is a winding road
That's taking me to places that I didn't want to go, whoa

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunderSo bring on the rain
Oh baby bring on the pain
And listen to the thunder

the green part is what has been playing in my head OVER AND OVER ALL DAY LONG. but did you read all that or were you like "PFT! I AINT READIN ALL THAT YOU CRAZY!" if you did read it, good for you. you get a smiley... :) is the song sappy? yes. am i messed up in the head? yes. do i blame my friends in part? YES. lol but its a good song...so whatever, and do i learn? no i type in youtube and keep on listening. eventually i'll get thunder burnout. then it'll be out mof my head.

sickness and thunder. lol...
~helcar <3 (kidding. i'd like to see the day when i end i post with a heart. maybe on valentines day or if something happens or it goes with the post theme. i doubt any of those will happen for a while or ever. the last one was the most likely. wow. i'm going to shut up now because i was supposed to be ENDING the post so...) :]

PS:once i re-read my post (lol i'm so smart i re-read once its published) i realized that i cut off in mid thought...of course, if you go back to my first few posts, i believe you were warned. if not, i'm sorry, but thats just too bad. i was saying (in m head as i was writing -then i got distracted) that alley is still sick)

Sunday, April 26, 2009

an aha! moment

aha! i remembered some things from my brain when i was watching a movie today! the things i forgot to add to my brain jumble yesterday was...

anna is really annoying sometimes. she basically doesn't trust me at all i dont think, and whenever i wear something other than a t-shirt, i get a "wow! its just so..not you!" i continue to try and emphasize the fact to her that maybe she doesn't know me as well as she thinks she does! and who knows. maybe she does, and maybe its NOT me. but idk. i'm not sure i even know what ME is. which of course doesn't help because i generally make it hard to know me as it it...so maybe its not me. or maybe it seems like its not me but it really is...or maybe its the little flashes of me that i've been locking away and all the sudden thanks to my pushy friends they're pushing through more and more all the time! am i confusing you yet? because i think i confused myself on that little rant.... oh well. just because i wear something that is a different style or cut does it make it "not me"? its the same type of print and humor, just a different type of sleeve! again, oh well....whatever.

and ALSO....
wow. i realized that almost all of my main guy friends are older than me. thats kinda sad i think. my main guy friends (or guys friends that i was friends with at some point) are

A. Mark (9th grader)
B. Willlie (9th grader)
C. Matt (Should be a 9th grader, but he's not the brightest bulb on the tree...)
D. Kyle (8th grader)

so i guess thats not TOO bad. they're only like a year older than me, but still...

i wonder how many people ACTUALLY know me...
~helcar >.<

Saturday, April 25, 2009

complications

soo...i'm back. it seems like lately my life has been like a carnival filled with bees. there's so many different things going on, and its all jumbled up. every time i blink there's a new deadline closing in trying to eat away at my life. basically, here's a three point summary of whats been keeping me away
1.grounded. lol
2. too busy
3. can't find a quiet place to think. everywhere is filled with something, and so i am writing at like 1am. lol

so now i'm wondering how to summarize. i guess i'll just say whats on my mind and whats been stored away all week. of course i'll probably forget things, but eh...whatever. i'll just try to separate the different ideas.

why does everything always have to be so complicated? nothing is ever about simply talking to someone, or telling then what you REALLY think about them. there's always something that has to be considered, and something that might and probably will go wrong. when it does go wrong, it seems like everything is broken. to quote John Tucker Must Die (most likely not the exact words, but its the main point.) "why can't life just be like a retro pop song? ... i want you to want me." and i'm not just talking about relationships with people or whatever you want to call them, i'm talking about everything! it seems like there are so many rediculous things that complicate everything! for example, if you wanted to be friends with someone, if they didn't necessarily hang out with the same people as you (ex: someone like me [kinda outcast-ish] trying to be friends with someone popular), that adds strain to the friendship most of the time because things are just different for some reason. you can't do this because when you do that it causes this! its REDICULOUS and insane.

i really want to prank the teachers, but i dont think my friends are up to it, and it would be hard to pull off i think. and of course, there are possible complications.

i REALLY wish it was summer and school was over because i'm sick of homework, i'm sick of teachers, i'm sick of not getting to sleep in, and i'm sick of haveing no free time!

the weather is really weird. on day its like 90 and the next day its like 58. thats really dumb.

i need to figure out when i can go to the movies with my friends.

i want to plan something for the end of the school year (like party-wise) but i'm debating on the guest list/party in general (a.k.a. should i invite mark? what kind of party would it be because i HIGHLY doubt sleepover is an option with a guy. theres only a couple friends i would actually trust when i consider their reactions BEFORE even having met him)

i'll stop there. and i WAS going to do a segment of MENTAL but i think i'll save that for next time. i want to go to sleep.

i know suprises! one is my suprise (not really a major one...in fact, i dont think anyone will even care but I care because I think its an ok suprise...actually its lame but WHATEVS.) and the other one ISN't my suprise but i can't tell! (this one is a much better suprise than my suprise i think. this one has a point in telling people)

hmm. now that i think about this, the main point of this post is the complications involved in everything! of course i go off topic a couple times but whatever....
~helcar @.@

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

ARGH!

i am italy. i don't know what alley is, but clara is spain, melissa is portugal (or switzerland?) and veronica, bethany and anna are like the united states, russia and england. noticing a pattern? they are the sides for world war 2 and also our status in the war for crush knowlege. lol me and alley are keeping our thoughts to ourselves AND FOR GOOD REASONS! so they have dubbed us the axis powers. whatever...clara and melissa claim that they're neutral, and bethany and veonica have shared and even though anna wont TELL ANYONE! (grr) she is claiming she is part of the allies. i think she should be like antarctica or something! or i guess she could be russia because i guess technically russia was just against the axis but not really with anyone else. pfT!

i have rejected their guessing games and from now on until i either let it slip on accident, get drugged, or decide to tell someone, they are going to get a "no" or a "its a secret" or a "i'm not telling you!" or something along those lines. why won't i play their games you ask? because its a bad idea. if i lead them in circles and tell them i like someone i dont, that could be a problem. if i ACTUALLY tell them the truth, it'll back me into a corner and they will find out who i like. THATS how clar and veronica found out last time. not because i CHOSE to tell them. lol so now they get to suffer and guess who i like as i sit in denial. all they know is that i like someone. >:D of course my plan will fall eventually, but until then, HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

IN OTHER NEWS!

-today we finished the giant reading test (THANK GOD!) and i was about to explode from the BORINGNESS.
-alleys mom ate luch with us today and tried to embarass her to death (i think she was pretty close)
-we watched a movie in school that had like a 20min section on hobos. LOL
-RAWR!
-alley "told" melissa who she likes.
-i forgot how we got onto the topic of who we like
-I JUST REMEMBERED! i think it was because we were making fun of pinochhio(i spelled that wrong didn't i? but that's who bc likes)

we have the RANDOMEST discussions at lunch. lol...
~helcar ;P

Monday, April 13, 2009

wazzapppp??

Hm...i haven't posted in a few days and i still have no clue what to write. grr. so lets give an update...

-anna got glasses (welcome to the club. lol)
-i miss walking to the bus with my friends.
-i want to knock my sisters heads off with a metal baseball bat.
-we have major testing tomorrow and the day after that and some other time
-i nearly got shot on easter.
-i destroyed my legs while i was avioding getting shot on easter.
-my sisters are super annoying lately
- i enjoy candy.
-if my strangly calm brain has anything to say about it, i will win the war.
-i wish more of my friends that didn't go to my school had a facebook so i could talk to them.
-i no longer have to drag myself to the car after track
-i have been stuck learning the same song in guitar for like three weeks now. UGH.
-my insane procrastination skills are conflicting with the part of me that knows that i have a million projects and only a hundred days.
-8th grade graduation is coming up and bethany wants to help me pick out a dress. ew.
-my brain is constantly conflicting itself lately...you could say that its fighting over territory.
-the dude that has guitar lessons after me is cute :P


hmm. well, i dont really want to go into detail on any of those. maybe later. lol so for now, ttyl.

so much newness among the old...
~helcar :D

Thursday, April 9, 2009

Warning:please stand out of arm range. to aviod decapitation

so here's how it all went down.....

ME:(walking around room and spots cell phone under a plastic bag) hmmm. 7 text messages? i only lost this like yesterday!
(scrolls through messages and the last one says):
Mark
Who's Matt? lol :)


O.O oh. my. god. (imagines a hint of good-humored jealosy from him when i read it lol)
Me
:) lol why are you asking who Matt is?
(twitch)

Mark

I got an email about him from your friends lol. :)
9:45pm

(starts to have a panic attack+ is unbeliveably furious) WHAT?! NO!
Me

...my friends emailed you?

Mark
Yep. no big deal!
9:47pm

oh. my. GOD! i am going to KILL them! (freaks out)

Me
ok. what did they say other than something about M.? (he's one of my friends from V to the A btw)

Mark
they just said i have competition :) i knew they were joking :)
9:50pm

crap. thats just fantastic. great. and what is that supposed to mean? there's a MILLION different ways that could be taken!
(thinks) and since i'm not there, i can't really read his REAL reaction. great.
just great.
Me
lol ok. they're a little mentally unstable. just warning you.

Mark
Haha lol! that made me laugh really hard and now my parents are looking at me! :)
9:52 pm

lol! why is he around his parents at 10 o'clock though? lol
Me
:) LOL i'll talk to them about their behavior tomorrow. when did they email you btw?

Mark
like a week ago. no big deal at all!
9:54pm

YEAH IT KINDA IS A BIG DEAL! YOU DON'T KNOW HOW MANY ISSUES THEY HAVE WITH YOU!
Me
lol ok. well i guess i'll let you go to bed or whatever then :)

Mark
ok! night! :)

Me
night!
............................................
by the end of the convo i was so annoyed/freaked out that i had a major headache.
and my brain was like
oh my god! oh my god! no! he's gonna figure it out! crap! ugh! oh no oh no oh n-PULL YOURSELF TOGETHER! there is a way to solve all of this. kill the person who sent the email!
but that won't solve anything!
shut up!
CAN WE GET BACK TO PANICKING NOW?!
OH NO OH NO OH NO!


then today i found out that anna and bethany were the ones who sent to email (SHOCKER!) and then anna had the nerve to ask why i always target her!
i also found out that clara and veronica had been emailing him too! they thought they should just email him and make small talk. i ought to kill all of them. the only ones not participating in a "ruin my life" fest were melissa and alley. but they KNEW ABOUT IT! GRRRR!
i think thats where i'm going to stop though because i need to figure out a way to fix this. ugh.

just because i don't kill you as soon as the threat leaves my mouth doesn't mean they are empty threats...
~helcar >:{

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

oh no. oh no oh no oh no.

OMFG tomorrow when i get to school, someone is going to be SLAUGHTERED. i was just informed (aka i found my cell phone) that one of my friends E-MAILED MARK. i am SO annoyed right now that i have a headache. my guess is anna or bethany. they are the pushers and i might just have an stroke.

they better hope they aviod me tomorrow.
> helcar >:@

Life as a food. lol

Well. i must say there's never a day without a weird convo with me and my homies. todays topic is......DRUMROLL!...
LIFE AS FOOD! lol so here is a list of foods that it would be cool (or not so cool) to be!
It has been agreed that the top food is: WATERMELON SEED.
why would it be cool to be one?
1.watermelon seeds get to swim forever without getting all wrinkly!
2. if you are a watermelon seed you don't have to go to school
3. even though you don't have to go to school, you get to see your friends all the time
4. (unless you're a white watermelon seed or just unlucky) you dont get eaten like you would if you were watermelon.
5. when people have seed spitting contests, its like getting shot out of a cannon!
why not?
1. if you are a white watermelon seed (unlikely, but hey!) you'rer gonna get eaten
2. if you get missed by a watermelon eater, you're gonna get bit, cracked, then have you and your bitter guts spit out
3. once people spit you out, you either get thrown away or trampled.
4. if you have a failure of a seed-spitter, you get to dribble down their chin in a pool of spit.
i think the pros are worth the risk of the cons.

now for a not so awesome food.
an ACTUAL WATERMELON
why would it be cool to be one?
1. you taste good.
2. you have pretty colors.
why not?
1. you're handicapped. if people don't take care of you, you die.
2. its like the witch with hansel and gretel, but there's no one to distract a hungry watermelon owner. when you get big and yummy looking, you die
3. when you die, it isn't peaceful. you get chopped open (most of the time into bits) then your insides get scooped out.
4. your babies (seeds) are like sea turtles. very few make it to adulthood. lol

ONWARDS!
i WAS going to blog about my evil mastermind (they aren't really evil or mastermind-like lol) plans. then i figured that i shouldn't try to explain things that i don't even have planned out myself. there are so many complications involved.
ITS LIKE A THURSDAY TODAY SINCE I HAVE FRIDAY OFF!! YIPPEE!

i think its time for a quick segment of...MENTAL. (lol do you get the joke in the title?)
last time on MENTAL our hero (or villan? or average kid?) was planning the death of a friend. today, she will be battling LOVE (or something similar).....

hmm. i'm finding out who a lot of people like lately...i wonder who clara likes? i wonder who anna likes? i wonder who melissa likes?
BC: blah blah blah pinnochio :D
...okkkkkaaayyyyy...
ALLEY: blah blah blah sattelite <3yes.>
ME: its a secret >:/
EVERYONE ELSE: TELLL MMEEEE! i promise i wont tell anyone!
ok. ok. hmm lets see. circles. how to lead them in circles.....ugh. why do they care so much?! too bad i can't just tell them. not with the lovely little hole i dug for myself by denying it...dang it.
ME: no. don't you understand the word S-E-C-R-E-T?
(slight mental spaz attack)
EVERYONE ELSE: fine...pooper.
yeah thats right. go away. go away and sulk because i'm not going to tell you! >:)

and that concludes this segment of MENTAL.

well, i think that's pretty much it. i'll keep you posted. (lol i'm punny!)

i wish I were a watermelon seed...
~helcar ;P

Sunday, April 5, 2009

*rippy rip stab stab*

I AM GOING TO KILL SOMEONE!!!!!! apparantly i'm "too young to post that i'm single" or whatever so my mom made me change my status on facebook. of course my friends noticed, so i got a "your status just changed. is there somthing you want to tell me ?" from alley, and a "OMG! MARK POPPED THE QUESTION DIDN'T HE!?!?!" from anna. GRRR. the thing is, alley knows that i like mark, but anna doesn't. actually, alley and rachael are the only ones that know besides me. so why is anna asking this question? because she is a butt. not only does she bug me 24/7 about mark, assume that we are going out, we're getting married and we already have children, she also thinks that i like every guy i talk about (even if he's way older than me) and calls me mrs. latterell. i am going to kill her. i was going to kill my mom too, but i was reminded that killing my mom would be a bad idea. and so this brings me to another segment of.........MENTAL everyone's favorite segment where you get to go inside my head! and see what's going on!

WARNING: MAY CHANGE TOPIC MID-THOUGHT....

Anna:OMG! MARK POPPED THE QUESTION DIDN'T HE!?!?!
oh great. i forgot that everyone could see when status changed....*growl*
*anna appears in my head* "hey! it's helcar! how's it goin! you and mark make such a cute couple!
ugh. she just doesn't know when to stop..... *duke of the dark side shows up behind anna in awesome smoking black armor* >:D yesssss.
*lady of light shows up on the other side of the border shining with light armour*
ugh. of course. can't you just go away for like 5 min!?
"what do you think you're doing azrael!? you can't just kill that kid!" says the lady in a perfect, angelic voice.
"sure i can. shes annoying the creator. besides. she's on my side of the border and i can do whatever i want!" says the duke with his gravelly, death like voice.
WILL YOU BOTH JUST SHUT UP AND DO SOMETHING!?
(all the while anna continues harassing me) then *CHOMP* out from the ground comes The Trap (The Trap is a gigantic venus flytrap type thing thats black with orange and blood-red spots on it) and it bites queenie in half, in the process making her gush blood all over the black sand the coats the dark side's earth.
"UGH! i really wanted to get rid of that one! " (duke)
"I TOLD YOU not to just kill things!" (lady)
"Fun-ruiner!" (duke)
"Barbarian!" (lady)
*both leave*
and that concludes this segment of MENTAL.

but then alley said that she would help kill anna, so this started another segment of MENTAL. (i'm sorry, but thats what happens when i say what i' m thinking)

BWAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!! NOW QUEENIE IS REALLY GOING TO DIE! *i bike to alley house under cover of darkness with backpack (you'll see what's in it in a minute)*
*alley sneaks out her bedroom window while i stash my bike*
*insane handsignals since we already had this planned out* (we're wearing black hats, black sweatpants and black sweatshirts, as well as black streaks under our eyes [football style!])
*we run to anna's house*
heehee!
"helcar shut up!"
sorry...
>:P
*we get to anna's house and sneak in her window*
*she wakes up just as we're about to kill her*
"hey! what are you guys doi-arggghhh!"
*we kill her before she finishes talking then run out the window and make a dash for the woods as helicopters with search lights fly above*

and that concludes this segment of MENTAL. lol.

IN OTHER NEWS:
i realized today just how much alley LOVES sattelite (that name is an inside joke that i sorta have only with myslef,). i think her heart pretty much explodes every time she sees him. i am trying to convince her to ask him out. its not working. she wants me to ask melissa to tell this other chick to tell a dude to ask sattelite if he likes her. or if he would go out with her (and other people in an attempt to cover tracks) i want to just ask him in person. she says no. lol so i will think of a plan. hopefully a plan that works. it would be good for her. the only thing is though, sincei'm messed up in the head, part of me wants to barf because of how much she loves him, and part of me is like, AWWW. ugh.

most people are alive because it is illegal to kill them....
~helcar >:x

Saturday, April 4, 2009

*blink*

I think it would be a lot easier to blog about something if i could direct my thoughts better. there are just too many i'm beginning to realize so theres probably going to be a-well actually, there WILL be a few different topics. lets start off with the first thing...

topic numero uno.......i am SO tired. last night i stayed up again talking to alley. the convo started around six or eight or something like that and then ended somtime in the middle of the night. of course this isn't the first time i've done this, and it won't be the last i dont think. the only downfall to that is that i was also talking to her on thursday night. we stopped around eleven because of school. alley has quickly become what i consider one of my closest friends. she knows pretty much all of my secrets...the interesting thing is that it seems like we always start out talking about joking type stuff then we get onto serious topics as it gets later, so its not all shooting the breeze...so yeah. i think i pretty much got that covered. i'm not going into details because A.that would be rude B. even though i know this is probably going to be long, i'm trying to keep in on the lite diet :P C. again with my random problems....i figured there should be a c but....WAIT! I GOT ONE! you don't need to know everything.

topic numero two (i have no clue how to SPELL two in spanish)...........ew. ewewewewewewewewew. i found out today that one of my friends is going out with a dude who i really don't like (there's a quite a few that I don't like actually). he is annoying, weird looking, has the most annoying voice ever and thinks that he is the coolest and smartest person in the world. yuck. i'm not supposed to say anything (oh...right) because they are "seeing how long it takes for people to notice". oh, and i asked her if they were just going for a joke or if they were serious, and they are serious. ew. that makes me sad. some people have bad taste in guys in my opinion (-Bethany-), but whatever. its their choice, their life, their guy opinions. its still gross though.

topic numero three (again with the foreign language spelling problem)............ i hate seeing people hurt. i hate seeing my friends hurt, i hate seeing strangers hurt, i hate seeing myself hurt. it just sucks. especially when you can't do much. maybe thats one of the reasons why i hide in my head. hurting hurts. (hm. well, i sorta expected this one to be longer, but i have bloggers block...lol)

That is all. lol

So many thoughts, so little concentration....
~helcar :P

Friday, April 3, 2009

quick q?

am i the only person that (and maybe i'm just a pathetic weirdo) when they hear love songs on the radio or whatever finds themselves thinking of the person they're crushing on, even if its just for a split second (most of the time its not). it seems like this tends to happen especially a lot when it songs about like....secret love? kinda like those "we should be together but you don't really see me" songs? anyways...just food for thought. is that the expession? OK! i have to stop. i get side-tracked too easily these days....

Pathetically confused....
-helcar >:/

random brain stuff.

hmmm. is it even possible to have so many thoughts going through your head at once? and the thoughts are literally RUNNING through my head. Picture letters with arms and legs running through a an empty field and- wait....why am i explaining this? i'm not THAT crazy....most of the time....hehe. But here's an idea of what is going through my head right now.....
WARNING: MAY CHANGE TOPIC MID THOUGHT.....

Hmm i'm glad its the weekend-i wish i could go to the movies right now-i'm so bored-why won't anna stop calling me mrs latterell?-why can't mr latterell just leave me alone!?!?-hm what can i eat?-i'm starving!-what's for dinner?-i wonder what my friends (specifically alley) were thinking during some parts of the talent show?-wow i can be really hard to understand sometimes-why is fr-i should text sunshine and see what he's up to...-oh no! the goose is going to die!

I'll stop there so your heads don't explode from my insanity.....let me tell you about the people i hang out with. they're interesting people :)

Alley-Super cool horror movie fan, manners police and a better version of me! hmmm....kinda like rachel 2.0 except nicer. lol.

Melissa-Really nice and eviler (i might make up some words here and there) than she lets on >:P

Anna- Super short chick that sometimes makes me want to kill her because she bugs me a lot. She's cool too though.

BBethany- My insanely boy-crazy friend. As with my other friends though, i love her to death (not in a weird way...like sister way)

Clara- Skater, runner and future all olympic gold medal superstar but she's kinda a spaz sometimes (which one of us isn't really?).

Veronica-Dancer who thinks she's worse than she is. Unfortunatly its very easy to make her mad so i constantly have to fix things....

Rachael-My cousin, twin (not literally)and partner in crime.

Mark- The dude i like. i met him at a conference thingy. he's a tree-hugger, a vegitarian and in his words, a "hottie" lol.

So today i was eating lunch and i put an orange in my mouth (the whole thing because oranges make my hands all sticky so i'm not going to rip them in half with my hands while i'm sitting at the table) and the manner police freaked out at my manners issue like she does every day...oh well :P I think i'm going to stop there.

Later...
~helcar >:D

Thursday, April 2, 2009

huh?

first post and hopefully not my last. honestly i don't know what exactly i want to write. i don't really want to bear my soul on the first post so lets just get this straight

1. i'm a weirdo
2. if you dont like anything on here you can just hop off the trolley and skidoo your way back to hater town because thats your problem not mine.
3. i'm not really one for sharing my secrets or feelings so we'll see how this goes.
4. if a sentence cuts off in the middle and switches topic, bear with me. i'm doin the best i can to stay on one topic at a time.
5. i don't know what to put here i just felt like there should be 5. i'm just cool like that.