complications

soo...i'm back. it seems like lately my life has been like a carnival filled with bees. there's so many different things going on, and its all jumbled up. every time i blink there's a new deadline closing in trying to eat away at my life. basically, here's a three point summary of whats been keeping me away
1.grounded. lol
2. too busy
3. can't find a quiet place to think. everywhere is filled with something, and so i am writing at like 1am. lol

so now i'm wondering how to summarize. i guess i'll just say whats on my mind and whats been stored away all week. of course i'll probably forget things, but eh...whatever. i'll just try to separate the different ideas.

why does everything always have to be so complicated? nothing is ever about simply talking to someone, or telling then what you REALLY think about them. there's always something that has to be considered, and something that might and probably will go wrong. when it does go wrong, it seems like everything is broken. to quote John Tucker Must Die (most likely not the exact words, but its the main point.) "why can't life just be like a retro pop song? ... i want you to want me." and i'm not just talking about relationships with people or whatever you want to call them, i'm talking about everything! it seems like there are so many rediculous things that complicate everything! for example, if you wanted to be friends with someone, if they didn't necessarily hang out with the same people as you (ex: someone like me [kinda outcast-ish] trying to be friends with someone popular), that adds strain to the friendship most of the time because things are just different for some reason. you can't do this because when you do that it causes this! its REDICULOUS and insane.

i really want to prank the teachers, but i dont think my friends are up to it, and it would be hard to pull off i think. and of course, there are possible complications.

i REALLY wish it was summer and school was over because i'm sick of homework, i'm sick of teachers, i'm sick of not getting to sleep in, and i'm sick of haveing no free time!

the weather is really weird. on day its like 90 and the next day its like 58. thats really dumb.

i need to figure out when i can go to the movies with my friends.

i want to plan something for the end of the school year (like party-wise) but i'm debating on the guest list/party in general (a.k.a. should i invite mark? what kind of party would it be because i HIGHLY doubt sleepover is an option with a guy. theres only a couple friends i would actually trust when i consider their reactions BEFORE even having met him)

i'll stop there. and i WAS going to do a segment of MENTAL but i think i'll save that for next time. i want to go to sleep.

i know suprises! one is my suprise (not really a major one...in fact, i dont think anyone will even care but I care because I think its an ok suprise...actually its lame but WHATEVS.) and the other one ISN't my suprise but i can't tell! (this one is a much better suprise than my suprise i think. this one has a point in telling people)

hmm. now that i think about this, the main point of this post is the complications involved in everything! of course i go off topic a couple times but whatever....
~helcar @.@