Merry Thanksgivingmas!

*Bursts in wearing a Santa hat* HO HO HO! MEEEEEEEEEEEERRY CHRISTMAS! Whats that? Oh, too soon? Hehe, my bad. Ah well. How was y'all's Thanksgiving? I would like to make a formal apology to anyone who thinks that I was knocking Thanksgiving, because I personally LOVE it. I mean I love eating and that's what you do on that day! But my loving family still made fun of me for eating a lot even though you're supposed to on Thanksgiving :( .I would like to be thankful for (I'll do 7 things since that seems to be the blogging world's favorite number...)

1.My family-No matter HOW much I complain about them, I still love them. From my creeper Mom to my murderous little Alexandra.

2.My friends-They keep me sane.

3.My pets-They also play a part in keeping me sane-well, except for maybe Rouge...he's a little worthless.

4.TiVO-As much as I love my computer, I don't want to have to fish it out and search crazily through the interweb to find full, episodes of my shows WITHOUT issues.

5.Cellies and the Internet-How else would I drive my mom crazy by constantly talking to my friends everywhere I am?

6.Food-Maybe this should've been higher on the list, because I freakin love this stuff. Oh well.

7. My bloggy peeps-My blog is an vent, and other peoples blogs can do anything from make me burst out laughing in the middle of my family room floor (which drives Victoria crazy) to make me hungry (well, actually, that's a lie-I'm always hungry-it just makes me drool)

8. Scary movies and books (particularly Stephen King books!)-They're awesome even though they probably don't help my insanity.

Ok so I lied. I did eight things. There's probably more stuff that I can type up that I'm thankful for, but I'm going to stop there because there ARE other matters on our agenda tonight.

Next up, we have an award. In my head, the crowd is cheering on one side and groaning on the other. As much as I love awards, I HATE trying to come up with facts. I'm just not good at it.

1.Thank the award sharing fiend
2.Copy the award onto your blog
3.Give the usual amount of facts (it's seven btw)
3.Don't be greedy, pass it on to seven more bloggers
4.Let the bloggers know you gave it to them (aka post a comment on their blog)
I would just like to say now that I'm not going to post comments for this one because I am an extremely busy high schooler what with finals coming up the DAY AFTER TOMORROW O.O , so although this is probably bad etiquette, that's too bad. I'll do it next time if I'm not shunned.

1.The area between my first and second knuckle on my fingers is generally lighter than the rest of my hand.

2.Chocolate is amazing. Especially with caramel. Just sayin.

3.I have a love hate relationship with my laptop (for example, just before I typed this, my internet stopped working so I tiredly got off my bed, scrambled upstairs, back downstairs while holding up my laptop hoping for my internet to come back. Finally after I disconnected from the network then reconnected, it came back)

4.I do basketball, track, and cross country

5.I love being outside in the woods and stuff.

6.My favorite author is probably Stephen King.

7.I am a big fan of the Washington Redskins. Why you ask? Because I was raised that way.

Ok so that should about cover it. Lets go with what my friend over at Zoinkers! did (thank you for this award by the way) and say that if you are on my list of blogs and you want this beast, then you can have it!

OH MY FREAKIN GAWD. Finals are coming up and they will be my first ever finals and I kinda hope I don't fail them.

So basketball started, (which I'm pretty sure I told you) and we have our first official game tomorrow, and I GET TO START! EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! Hopefully I don't totally screw things up. And the 9th grade team got spiffy new uniforms, so that makes it even better!

Finally, well I THINK it's finally, on Black Friday, I got to hang out with Mark and Lauren (sigh. just kidding...maybe) it was fun. We hung out at the monster mall (whose name is omitted for safety purposes) and we just kinda wandered, then we ate at a fancy italian place and Mark and I shared a pizza, and he gave me bread-hes so funny- and then we wandered some more and then we went bowling. It was amazingly fun. Here's some highlights.

-reading books out loud at Barnes and Nobles
-sharing pizza
-"having swagger" and walking into a store all funny just because of the cool beat that the music had...and then walking right back out.
-multiples times he said, "haha I love you R-er..um-Helcar" (not like <3-more like home dawg love. Its still cool)
And in the store that we walked into, (we went back in to look around with Laurens parents later) he picked up a mustache Christmas tree ornament and held it up and I have a picture of it that I was going to put on here until i remembered that its on my cell phone and this is sorta a anonymous-ish blog. I just don't want this to be read by some person that just happens to know him and then shows him the blog...that would be BAD. Seriously. I had a whole mental freak attack about all that could happen or has possibly already happened.


Finally, I got some music on my PSP! This is good because I've been meaning to do it, and also, I can't find my iPod. Unfortunately, it took like 2 hours to get 50 songs on there because my computer hates me, so I had to
a.reload the CD onto my computer that I wanted to put on the PSP
b.sync no more that TWO SONGS AT A TIME onto the thing
c.transfer the songs through 3 different folders so they would show up
d.disconnect my PSP about every four songs otherwise it wouldn't sync anymore songs.

and I managed to do this with about 4 CD's before I had to do homework and go grocery shopping with my mom. I'll continue to do this since I have a long weekend this week-although Friday is busy- I have some drill thing that I volunteered for in the morning, and then another basketball game.

I'm pretty sure that my tired brain has destroyed whatever I was going to talk about next, so lets stop here. The post is probably long enough anyways.

And a happy New Year...
-Helcar :D

Oh what a relief it is!

After the nice men in the white coats told me to eat some ice cream and calm down before they gave me the straitjacket again, I felt much better! Especially with that shot they gave me? *twitch* Haha. Just kidding.

But not much is going on over here on the home front. Basketball started today, and with the awesome killer-happy man to deal with for four months, I continue on my path to having my brain turn to mush before my senior year! But then again, it might just be mush already.

I have been diagnosed with withdrawal and I believe that it might just be a correct diagnosis. "What? The crazy girl in withdrawal? Did you forget to take your meds?" No! I told you I throw them in the sink when they give them... I mean um, I may be in withdrawal from a certain thing that is designated the name "The M word" in the tags. For those of you who are too lazy to find the common denominator, that would be Mark. Lets just leave it at that. The romance monster has revolted and is waging all out war on my sensible side, and that's enough of a problem. I'm not going to help it by opening my mouth.

So anywho, I know I'm a regular chatzilla and all, but I have to do homework, so this is all you're getting right now!

Stay tuned for next post's episode...
-Helcar :)

...And Misery Loves Company.

*cue annoying news update music*-We interrupt this program to bring you some good 'ol teenage rage, courtesy of helcar. Stay tuned, the scheduled program will return shortly...maybe-
Well isn't this just the Friday from hell? (Just a warning, if you don't want to read this whiny anger post, then go ahead, you can walk away and come back when I have up a different post. See if you like it better. I wouldn't blame you.) But Fridays are supposed to be fun and great and everything. When I was at school, it was fun and stuff (well, other than the nagging in the back of my mind about the events that were to come...) and like if I ignored the school part it was great. Even when I went home, it was still ok. But now EVERY DAY I dread when my mom comes home. I don't want to hear her screaming and yelling and blaming me and Victoria for EVERYTHING while Alexandra turns up her precious Hannah Montana and gets none of the tongue lashing.
And before I get too much of my annoyance out and lose my head (forgive any language that slips through the parental barriers of my mind. I'm kinda pissed right now.) I'd just like to let you know that I DO realize that there are people that are a hundred times worse off than I am right now.)
So anyways, when I went to Alley's Halloween thing (which was fun) and I was supposed to clean the ENTIRE lower level of my house, which is always the messiest. I cleaned the basement and my room and my bathroom and went to the party thinking I was off-free-liberated from the madhouse that I live in. My mom comes to pick me up and she's all-yeah you're grounded for two weeks.. Why? Because the basement and my room "weren't clean" YES THEY WERE.

Commencement of my mom's crazy Nazi slave driver phase was on an unknown date, but it was now in full out rage power-up swing. Not only had she given me a job list that included
-clean, vaccuum, dust the basement
-","," your room.
-Clean the Chinchilla cage
-Clean the kitty litter
-vaccuum the basement steps
-clean your bathroom
and this all had to be done by 2pm on that day (even if an alarm is set, I normally don't get up till at least 9 or 10am.

She comes home, complains about how we don't do anything and we don't love the animals because we dont do anything with them (I fill up Rio's water dish like every 4 min, play with him all the time, feed him and teach him tricks. I also clean the chinchilla cage and take care of their food and water and treats 24/7. What more does she want?) Then tells us how lazy we are and tells us to pick up or do the dishes or something.

Then, since I may or may not have mentioned that we were supposed to be finding homes for the two girl cats, Patches and Princess. I no longer have Patches. We dropped her off at her new owner's house tonight, and we were supposed to do the same for Princess, but the people who were supposed to get her didn't pick up their phone so we couldn't get their address. All day long, I got to think about how the cat's that I've had and taken care of were being taken away from me. They had to go because "the didn't like each other and they didn't like the dog and Princess pees on the floor because she's all territorial over everything." So yeah.

Also, this girl on my cross country team (we have the banquet on Tuesday, and knowing how much my mom loves me right now, she'll probably ban me from that, in which case I will tell her to take a flying leap and walk to the school if I have to.) made it to STATE. This girl is seriously amazing. She's an 8th grader, and she got 8th place in the Varsity race at sectionals-which had like 17 schools at it- and she is the #1 Varsity runner. I was going to go to the meet tomorrow to support her, because if someone you were on a team with went to state, you probably would want to go because thats like AMAZING, especially when you're running against the top high school runners from each school. I wasn't even going to make my mom take me to the meet, because Clara had offered to take me to the meet (and then her sis' basketball game) and my mom was like "NO. Anything that allows you to be around your friends is banned in your groundation because you tried to flimflam me". Firstly, WHO says FLIMFLAM?! But also, despite begging, reasoning and being angry, she continued to say no (when she lets Alexandra do whatever when she's grounded) and so I can't even go to a SPORTING EVENT to support MY TEAMMATE because my mom says that I'd be able to hang out with my friends.

I am so f-ing frustated that I just want to scream or cry or punch a wall (or my mom...) but I CAN'T. Because that would trigger more complaining. All the the techniques to dissapate all this pent up anger (some good angry rock music, throwing weight pieces at the basement floor and making lovely dents-which I am just waiting for my mom to notice-, punching pillows, excersising, its NOT making me any less angry. UGH.

It doesn't make sense to me that I should have to be the slave/scapegoat and be blamed for everything, while my sister can do a half a$$ed job of dusting and not do any of her other jobs and get off scott free. Why do I get grounded from my one salvation when I do something "wrong" while my sisters get grounded from something that doesn't even matter to them? WHY do I have to put up with my mom who is practically bi-polar and cursing me out one minute then trying to kiss me on the cheek, and then she's pissed when I'm not embracing her with open arms?! My mom says she wishes we would be out of the house and then says we can't go anywhere. I don't ask her for money, I don't get in trouble in OR out of school, and I obey practically her every whim. So WHY does she see fit to act like a total b*tch to me 90% of the time?

On the-well I don't know if its a plus or downside, becuase I guess it sorta depends- Clara is beginning to see the frustration I endure with the Mark situation. Its not as simple as it seems, and you only ACTUALLY understand it if you've experienced it. I won't go into any more detail for that because I deem it unnecessary.

We wear the mask that grins and lies
It hides our cheeks and shades our eyes,--
This debt we pay to human guile;
With torn and bleeding hearts we smile,
And mouth with myriad subtleties.

Why should the world be overwise,
In counting all our tears and sighs?
Nay, let them only see us, while
We wear the mask.

We smile, but, O great Christ, our cries
To thee from tourtured souls arise.
We sing, but oh the clay is vile
Beneath the feet, and long the mile;
But let the world dream otherwise,
We wear the mask!

--Paul Laurence Dunbar
The scheduled program will return shortly...
-Helcar. :I

THIS IS HALLOWEEN!

Well actually, Ms. Crazy Blogger Girl, it is in fact NOT Halloween, but Hallows Eve (is that what the night before Halloween is called? No? Too bad. It is now.) but thats ok because I wont have the time to be blogging tomorrow. I have to put the finishing touches on my (amazing) costume and clean my house and do my homework and go for a run-then take a shower of course, which might happen after some ab time...most of these things (aka like everything except my costume) needs to be done by like 2:30, which is when my mom is getting home from work. Hooray for me right? And now, ladies and gentlemen, on to the main event!

Ok, so Alley is having a Halloween party right? So all week I had to battle with my mo to even get her to let me go in the first place, and I finally sorta got her to agree that if I cleaned dpart of the house I could go to the party. Then, she said that I couldn't sleep over (its a sleepover party) just becuase she felt like it, and she thought that I had been to enough sleepovers lately. Then, after 2 days of asking "please? please? WHY NOT?" she was like "If you think you're sleeping over at Alley's you need to clean this house because I have a friend coming over and I don't want this house to look messy!" AND THE TRUTH COMES OUT! Ugh. I had to suffer and beg all week when really my mom is just too lazy to clean the house herself, and she knew we'd (my sisters and I) clean if she threatened something we wanted to do. That is just a little bit obnoxious. Oh well.

Like I don't even know what to think, like to be jealous or happy or sad or what, but whatever. Clara and Alley are like all successful with their love lifes right now, like Clara (we will call her guy BP) talks to BP a lot, like texting and in person, and like just the other day at the last (*sniff*) cross country meet-he's in CC too- she was like "How did you do?" and they held a convo-even though we were trying to get someplace-but it was kinda funny because she wasn't like hanging on his every word or anything, but I could definatly see the gushy happiness in her face and stuff. When she (finally) left, she was like freakin out because I was teasing her and she was like "OMG am I that obvious?" But I don't think she really was, I mean maybe, but you know how you can notice stuff mroe with your friends, especially if you know what's going on? But anyways, and Alley is to the point where she was talking to him for a while and like he likes her back and stuff (we can call him...um...K-dog). So anyways, I'm like happy for them/wallowing in my sarcastic pool of self-pity.

So...um..well you see, I'm sorry if this post isn't very organized because my brain isn't very organized...oh well.

I'm in the process of trying to find out when Mark and Lauren are free because I haven't seen them in a while, so I'm workin on it.

I think thats all I got for ya today...
-Helcar >:3) (thats a really weird devil in honor of HALLOWEEN-the best holiday ever!)

Awkward much?

Well ladies and gentlemen, the day has come again where we share our awkward stories and laugh (and cringe) with each other! This event is hosted by the lovely Tova, so follow the rules! (Post, link back, then add your linkey to her list and all that fun stuff)
So this awkwardness takes place not long ago, as in like winter break ish, so December. My sisters and dad were in tow, and that causes the awkwardness...just you wait.

It was getting to be towards the end of winter break, and it was after Christmas, and my psycho dad insisted that we take a TWO DAY DRIVE all the way back from North Carolina IN THE WINTER! That includes winter snowy storms and all of that fun crap. So anyways, I was stressed, because I had an appointment that I REALLY needed to get to. That appointment was tubing with my conference friends....aka Mark and Lauren. Luckily we got back in time. So when I got to the snow tubing place, I gave Mark a ring to find out where he was...and where the tubing was as a matter of fact...I'd never been tubing there before...so anyways, once I got to this hill thing, (Lauren wasn't there yet) there was one person in a red coat standing, and they were standing at the top of a snow packed, icy, and fairly steep slope. I immediately (ok, well not immediately. It took me like 2 seconds) figured out who the person was (Mark) , and suddenly that person was barreling down the icy hill. I, being the genius I am, went forward like 4 steps (with my stride, its quite a bit.) and got a flying tackle hug from Mark. (No, for those of you that don't know, he's NOT my boyfriend [not that I would object if he was...I mean, I only like him... :} ] he's just my friend) The hug lasted a couple (or like 5) seconds. We kinda spun a little bit (like a half turn people. NOT 'picking someone up and spinning' type thing) because he was kinda to the side, and the path was icy. Trust me. This doesn't help the awkwardness. I don't know about him, but it was kinda a body slam, and I needed a couple seconds to recover. This is where the awkwardness really starts to set in. My dad and sisters were still behind me, and I could feel my sisters gawking, and my dad trying to burn a hole in my back with his eyes. That was REALLY awkward, because even though we were just exchanging out of breath 'hi's' (we did just sorta body slam mind you!) and recovering, my family was staring at me like we were making out. Mark told me when we were all going back up the hill that he was trying to knock me over...he nearly succeeded, and I have a feeling that would've REALLY made the awkwardness worse.

So that will be all for now.

Oh the awkwardness...
-Helcar :P

Maybe i should get some motivation BEFORE 2am

Sooo. as you may or may not be able to see, i'm blogging at 3am. Why do i have no motivation what so ever until the late (or early) hours of the night (morning? i have NO CLUE. and plus, i get lazy like halfway through since its so late, and then my typos get even worse. and i've realized (well actually, i already knew it, i just haven't actually thought about it.) that it might annoy people that i have like 100 typos per post ( i'm WAY too lazy to use spell check) and that i practically never capitalize anything. and you know what?! (what?) that's just TOO BAD.

but a REALLY HUGE thing i want to mention is that i also have another follower!!! :D and yeah, the blogging celebs might be like "psh! the blogging peasant is excited about having two followers?" but YOU KNOW WHAT?! i don't care! it's a HUGE step in the right direction, and i'm STOKED! so my follower is the awesome Sara over at Waking up in a sleepy town ! And i don't believe i've formally introduced myself; i'm rachel. i'm weird. i'm 14, like alley. i change subjects a lot and i don't always make sense. now you know a little bit about me. lol maybe i should take peoples ideas and start posting random facts. i don't know. i'll submit it to my producers (aka my brain) but the romance monster will probably eat it alive without batting an eyelash. i doubt i will anyways. oh well. lol

so now on to the main event! or rather what i didn't finish LAST time i was posting.....
MENTAL...everyone's favorite....oh forget it. for those of you that are new, its basically me rambling about what's going on in my head. lol
IN THIS SEGMENT OF MENTAL I WILL BE TALKING ABOUT THE DAYDREAM THING THAT I HAD FOR NO REAL REASON WHILE I WAS TALKING TO ALLEY. IT WAS TRIGGERED BY NONE OTHER THAN THE ROMANCE MONSTER.

so to introduce the setting, picture a hill. a fairly large grassy hill, spotted with wildflowers. its not OVERFLOWING with them. behind the hill is the edge of a large forest, which i and sunshine (of course he's involved in this) hiked through all day (as a couple)

me and mark were wandering through the forest, and we happened upon this hill. so we went and we sat down on top of the hill, dropping our stuff a few feet behind us so we could rest. we were sitting with our feet out in front of us, and our arms spread out behind us (in a V so we wouldn't fall over)

his hand was on top of mine, and he had his fingers intertwined in mine, so it was sorta like holding hands.

so we just kinda sat there, talking about the day and laughing at inside jokes. at some point in the convo, mark picked one of the floweres that was around us and he was like "here. this is for you" and set it in my lap.

so when there was a lapse in our convo (which was after a while) he kissed me on the cheek and wrapped his arms around me. then i layed my head on his shoulder. it was nice.

so i think that concludes this segment of MENTAL. but, you know, its 4:30am, and i am FAR from the ability to think well right now. lol so after i imagined all of this, i told alley, and then both her and i were freaking out, and then my internet stopped working and i had to scramble throughout my house for a half an hour and get it to work. so that was great. but anyways, if there was anything else, i'm not gonna remember it now. so.....

oh i wonder what would happen if mark found out about this blog? that would certanly give me something for Secret Life of Tova Darling 's Totally Awkward Tuesdays. i'm hoping that doesn't happen though....
-helcar <3 (ok. i think this post calls for a heart because normally the face goes with the content.)

P.S.: i feel like its necessary to inform you of the fact that although it says that this post was published at 2:50 something? it was ACTUALLY like 4:48 ish. don't ask me why i feel like i need to tell you. i just do. and that's why i need to get some motivation before 2am.

its storytime children!!! :P

Well, I'm back! so here we go... i think I'll start off with one of those stories I've been talking about...lol

From the very beginning.....

Upon arrival at the Hyatt, i went up couple floors and came into one of those large banquet hall type things. once i got my name tag and dropped off my luggage, i went to the back of the room where all the people were standing in a circle.
when i got back to the circle, i saw that people were playing a game. everyone had their shoes off, and it was kinda like musical chairs, but there was a person in the middle, who had to say something about themselves (ex: i have mail for anyone who has a sister) and anyone that that applied to had to go stand behind a different pair of shoes. once we got done with that game, it was time for a different one.
it turns out that everyone was divided into groups, like Great Lakes, Gulf of Mexico, Mississippi, Salt Lake (my group) and a couple others. so everyone sat with their groups for this game. of course everyone introduced themselves and where they were from and all that stuff. the objective of this game was to think of songs with a specified word in it, then you had to sing it, but if another group sang your song, you had to have a different one. for example, the first word was "love" so people sang stuff like the barney song and love shack.
the instructions we had been given was to introduce yourself to any newcomers and explain what you're doing when they get there. the second word was "baby". a couple minutes after this was assigned, my group was brainstorming songs, and i saw someone come and sit behind me out of the corner of my eye. i wasn't sure they would say anything, so i grabbed the bull by the horns and instead of waiting for someone else to say something, i turned around and said "hey! we're trying to think of songs with the word "baby" in it. :)" to none other than mark.
when we got done with the game, we had a little time to socialize, and by the end of that time, me, mark, and some other people were joking around and socializing. then it was lunchtime. we all went down and sat at a table like we had known each other for years, not minutes (yeah that sounds kinda cliche, but that's how it went down) as everyone else awkwardly scrambled to tables. by the time we got our plates, we had all decided that we were being trained to take over the world at the "leader" conference, and we were dividing up countries.lol so as an important person in the program gave a speech about "being the leaders of tomorrow, learning new skills and new opportunities" our whole table was cracking up and making side jokes about being mini dictators.
next we got our meals. its was spaghetti and with one of those giant meatballs and some sort of salad (all of the lunch/dinners were a main course with some sort of salad. most of the time it was lettuce, but once it was pasta salad). while we were eating, we all asked questions like "if you were a color, what would you be" and went around the table answering them. i was being lazy and trying to cut my meatball with my fork, except it wasn't working out too well. lol the meatball kept sliding around my plate/bowl thing and mark noticed and just laughed. then he was like "here you go! I'm a vegetarian. :D" and he put his meatball on my plate when at this point i had like half of mine gone so i could sorta cut it. and i was all like "gee thanks" in a joking sarcastic tone and he was like "yep no problem! and he started laughing again then went back to asking questions.

I'll stop that story there. so what else is there to talk about?

Anna knows who i like now, so yeah.

Clara likes someone (duh) and so I'm very lazily trying to get it out of her. i doubt I'll be able to though, so I'm not really trying that hard.

Bethany friend requested Pinocchio (every once in a while i call him Po because its shorter (and the first and last letter) of Pinocchio) on facebook

I'm grounded for two weeks, which messes up everything. :'(

school is almost over! there's basically one day left!

i kind used a lot of time/writing on that story, so I'm gonna stop now...
-helcar ;D

Warning:please stand out of arm range. to aviod decapitation

so here's how it all went down.....

ME:(walking around room and spots cell phone under a plastic bag) hmmm. 7 text messages? i only lost this like yesterday!
(scrolls through messages and the last one says):
Mark
Who's Matt? lol :)


O.O oh. my. god. (imagines a hint of good-humored jealosy from him when i read it lol)
Me
:) lol why are you asking who Matt is?
(twitch)

Mark

I got an email about him from your friends lol. :)
9:45pm

(starts to have a panic attack+ is unbeliveably furious) WHAT?! NO!
Me

...my friends emailed you?

Mark
Yep. no big deal!
9:47pm

oh. my. GOD! i am going to KILL them! (freaks out)

Me
ok. what did they say other than something about M.? (he's one of my friends from V to the A btw)

Mark
they just said i have competition :) i knew they were joking :)
9:50pm

crap. thats just fantastic. great. and what is that supposed to mean? there's a MILLION different ways that could be taken!
(thinks) and since i'm not there, i can't really read his REAL reaction. great.
just great.
Me
lol ok. they're a little mentally unstable. just warning you.

Mark
Haha lol! that made me laugh really hard and now my parents are looking at me! :)
9:52 pm

lol! why is he around his parents at 10 o'clock though? lol
Me
:) LOL i'll talk to them about their behavior tomorrow. when did they email you btw?

Mark
like a week ago. no big deal at all!
9:54pm

YEAH IT KINDA IS A BIG DEAL! YOU DON'T KNOW HOW MANY ISSUES THEY HAVE WITH YOU!
Me
lol ok. well i guess i'll let you go to bed or whatever then :)

Mark
ok! night! :)

Me
night!
............................................
by the end of the convo i was so annoyed/freaked out that i had a major headache.
and my brain was like
oh my god! oh my god! no! he's gonna figure it out! crap! ugh! oh no oh no oh n-PULL YOURSELF TOGETHER! there is a way to solve all of this. kill the person who sent the email!
but that won't solve anything!
shut up!
CAN WE GET BACK TO PANICKING NOW?!
OH NO OH NO OH NO!

then today i found out that anna and bethany were the ones who sent to email (SHOCKER!) and then anna had the nerve to ask why i always target her!
i also found out that clara and veronica had been emailing him too! they thought they should just email him and make small talk. i ought to kill all of them. the only ones not participating in a "ruin my life" fest were melissa and alley. but they KNEW ABOUT IT! GRRRR!
i think thats where i'm going to stop though because i need to figure out a way to fix this. ugh.

just because i don't kill you as soon as the threat leaves my mouth doesn't mean they are empty threats...
~helcar >:{

oh no. oh no oh no oh no.

OMFG tomorrow when i get to school, someone is going to be SLAUGHTERED. i was just informed (aka i found my cell phone) that one of my friends E-MAILED MARK. i am SO annoyed right now that i have a headache. my guess is anna or bethany. they are the pushers and i might just have an stroke.

they better hope they aviod me tomorrow.
> helcar >:@