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everyone is sick :( swine flu is making everyone sick.. EVEN IF THEY DONT HAVE SWINE FLU! lol maybe the world WILL end in 2012! everyone will be disease ridden and die! happy thought right? enjoy your last years! make a mini bucket-list! do you want to meet a rockstar? DO IT! do you want to talk to the cute guy in your class? DO IT! do you want to get a piece of writing published, even if its just in the newspaper? DO IT! YOU CAN DO IT! QUICK! IN THE TIME YOU HAVE LEFT! lol do i sound like some sort of messed up motivationial (not even going to spell check that one) speaker? but ANYWAYS! i was sick, olympia was sick, bc was sick, spaz was sick, and alley (at the moment..which is 10:59pm on april 29, 2009...lol i was talking to her mom on facebook....)
ALSO: i have Thunder by Boys Like Girls stuck in my head. except its just the chorus thats stuck in my head....

Today is a winding road
Thats taking me to places that I didn't want to go, whoa
Today in the blink of an eye
I'm holding on to something and I do not know why I tried
I tried to read between the lines
I tried to look in your eyes
I want a simple explanation; what I'm feeling inside
I gotta find a way out
Maybe there's a way out

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder

Today is a winding road
Tell me where to start and tell me something I don't know, whoa
Today I'm on my own
I cant move a muscle and I cant pick up the phone, I don't know
And now I'm itching for the tall grass
And longing for the breeze
I need to step outside, just to see if I can breathe
I gotta find a way out
Maybe there's a way out

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain,

Yeah I'm walking on a tightrope
I'm wrapped up in vines
I think Ill make it out but you just gotta give me time
Strike me down with lightning
Let me feel you in my veins
I wanna let you know how much I feel your pain

Today is a winding road
That's taking me to places that I didn't want to go, whoa

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunderSo bring on the rain
Oh baby bring on the pain
And listen to the thunder

the green part is what has been playing in my head OVER AND OVER ALL DAY LONG. but did you read all that or were you like "PFT! I AINT READIN ALL THAT YOU CRAZY!" if you did read it, good for you. you get a smiley... :) is the song sappy? yes. am i messed up in the head? yes. do i blame my friends in part? YES. lol but its a good song...so whatever, and do i learn? no i type in youtube and keep on listening. eventually i'll get thunder burnout. then it'll be out mof my head.

sickness and thunder. lol...
~helcar <3 (kidding. i'd like to see the day when i end i post with a heart. maybe on valentines day or if something happens or it goes with the post theme. i doubt any of those will happen for a while or ever. the last one was the most likely. wow. i'm going to shut up now because i was supposed to be ENDING the post so...) :]

PS:once i re-read my post (lol i'm so smart i re-read once its published) i realized that i cut off in mid thought...of course, if you go back to my first few posts, i believe you were warned. if not, i'm sorry, but thats just too bad. i was saying (in m head as i was writing -then i got distracted) that alley is still sick)

an aha! moment

aha! i remembered some things from my brain when i was watching a movie today! the things i forgot to add to my brain jumble yesterday was...

anna is really annoying sometimes. she basically doesn't trust me at all i dont think, and whenever i wear something other than a t-shirt, i get a "wow! its just so..not you!" i continue to try and emphasize the fact to her that maybe she doesn't know me as well as she thinks she does! and who knows. maybe she does, and maybe its NOT me. but idk. i'm not sure i even know what ME is. which of course doesn't help because i generally make it hard to know me as it it...so maybe its not me. or maybe it seems like its not me but it really is...or maybe its the little flashes of me that i've been locking away and all the sudden thanks to my pushy friends they're pushing through more and more all the time! am i confusing you yet? because i think i confused myself on that little rant.... oh well. just because i wear something that is a different style or cut does it make it "not me"? its the same type of print and humor, just a different type of sleeve! again, oh well....whatever.

and ALSO....
wow. i realized that almost all of my main guy friends are older than me. thats kinda sad i think. my main guy friends (or guys friends that i was friends with at some point) are

A. Mark (9th grader)
B. Willlie (9th grader)
C. Matt (Should be a 9th grader, but he's not the brightest bulb on the tree...)
D. Kyle (8th grader)

so i guess thats not TOO bad. they're only like a year older than me, but still...

i wonder how many people ACTUALLY know me...
~helcar >.<